APOLOGIZE TO ALL!

Hello, guys, girls, dear KL members!

I guess you what happened last days and in the incident with me.
Thanks to Freddy that he gave me the chance to apologize here to all members, not only to Roya or Dan, but to all members here in KL community.

I am really sorry for those things I said in the past here in KL forum, especially the thing for which I am banned at the moment, for saying respectless things about Roya. I am sorry for all problems I caused here and I will take the responsibility for it. I did not know that you take it that way and that it was so bad but now I understand how you feel. Well, I hope I understand a bit at least. I am sorry for everything, I regret it and I know there is no excuse for it. I want to apologize not only for stupid and respectless things and comments I wrote here but also for stupidity and dumbass behaviour towards all of you, especially to Roya. I feel so guilty and respectless. I did not know how much damage I cause here because of that. At the moment I wrote this respectless comment I had some problems with my family and I saw red when I saw the comment before about me. I read that it is ok to rape me and I saw totally red that I forgot my brain and wrote that dumbass stuff. I know there is no apologize for that. I am not against Roya, I am not against women, in real life I treat all girls and women well and I don't know why I said that, why I took her name, but I regret it that I said so. I take responsibility for that thing. I was not aware of the consequences and results I cause with it because Skandalist also took my name before for a bad joke.

I really don't know why but believe me, I act here in a different way then in real life. Maybe it is because in real life I am a bit shy and not very self-confident, maybe this is why I try to want to be cool and hard here, I want to show a bit self-confidence but I see it caused such a big s*** here, the problem now with the thing I said, I see it was a bit too much.

I feel so guilty and sad about that because I know or I can guess what you are thinking about me now. I only would like to make clear that I have nothing against women, I am against raping, I jugde this crime very heavily, I hope the expression is correct. I did not think about that when I wrote that thing and how it can hurt people, maybe it is because I was bullied in school and by my friends so maybe it is because I tried to hide emotions.
Anyway, no excuse.

It wasn't the ban who made me think in a different way, it was the thing Skandalist wrote to me in shoutbox how he feels about that and how KL community feels about that. I see it in a different light now and that I was wrong with my behaviour the whole time. I regret it and I am ready to show you that I changed. I will show you after my punishment of 2 weeks ban here on KL forum. I accept my punishment because I want to take responsibility and I know that that it is correct for that I have done to Roya.

Thanks to Freddy that he unbanned me for some time that I have the possibility to apologize to everyone, to whole KL community, especially to Roya. I am really sorry for that Roya and I hope you can forgive me one day. I was not supposed to hurt anyone by that. I know I often have a bad sense of humor.

I wanted to write this here and now because I think it is better now to apologize instead of doing this in 2 weeks when we should try to forget bad stuff and don't remember maybe that much.

I wanted to write it because I wanted to have a clean consciousness before I take that 'break' and to show you that I feel very sorry for it. I am serious and I will show you that my behaviour changed. I cried a lot after I noticed that result from my stupidity.

At last, I don't know if you forgot, I want that you remove me from KL friend's group because I don't deserve it right now in this situation. It would be better if you gave me the chance to get it back by winning your trust again.


PS: I asked Skandalist if he could do me the favour to tell me if someone writes or comments on my apologize because later this day I won't be able to read it. Maybe Pig could inform me too.

I am sorry for the long text, I really want to express what I feel about that.
Now you have silence for over 2 weeks.
See you then again. Please let me know if I have forgotten something or if you have questions.

BB and enjoy your time.

Regards, {WRS}Kampfhamster

hmm this is good. i allways knew u are a responsible person even thou u some times take your "jokes" way too far. its good to see that you take this very serius and i will still call you friend. its sad that some ppl had to get very hurt for this change to happen but whats done is done.

im not sure about all the things said but i guess it doesnt matter that much. i have seen alot of ppl acting in rage and its never that pretty. for me its important that u take responsiblity and u show some balls in doing so. u allso try to tell us about how you are in IRL which alot of ppl is trying to hide. so for me you have my respect hamster. but still you have to work on it more.

btw if you wanna talk you can allways write to me on xfireor send pm to me on the forum. i allways wanna help a friend even if he screws up majorly and hurt some ppl

Its easy to screw up, its harder to make it good again.

My points:

-I rarely read your posts, most are spam.
-Saying 'rape roya' was unacceptable, but I don't think u mean it, still horible joke.
-Don't cross the line!!!
-He is talking with Roya in TS3, he can't mean that
-Permanent ban is too strickt.
-Most important, it's a game lets go and have fun now, uh ?

I prefer talking in xfire because I will be banned again later today.

Yes, I really want to show you how I act in real life, it shall not be an excuse but maybe a bit to understand me a bit better.

I am a very quiet person in rl, I was bullied in childhood from kindergarden to school when I grew up and quit my school, I had no real childhood because I did not want to do something with my friends because they were those who bullied me. Finding new friends were impossible for me, I thought everyone would act like the bullies and I was afraid that my new friends think: "Omg, can't he leave us alone, pls?", when they are in a group together. I really wanted to leave that time behind, I had not many friends, I had no youth, going out for partying, for searching a girl, a girlfriend, I was just too shy and scared of it.

I saw that I had to change my behaviour, to come out a bit, out of myself, to be extrovert.
So I decided to pretend to be hard, maybe to lock my feelings about it, to make jokes instead of feeling sentimental. And now I have got to know that it is just to much how I behave. I became from a bullied one to a bullying one and that makes me sad.

I am really sorry and you really brainwashed me with this action.

{KL}4life wrote:

My points:

-I rarely read your posts, most are spam.
-Saying 'rape roya' was unacceptable, but I don't think u mean it, still horible joke.
-Don't cross the line!!!
-He is talking with Roya in TS3, he can't mean that
-Permanent ban is too strickt.
-Most important, it's a game lets go and have fun now, uh ?

I have seen and honestly, I also would accept permanent ban for that because I would deserve it.


PS: I only reacted like that because I read something from Skandalist like: "You can rape Hamster."

I saw red and did not think about that it is so horrible because Skandalist also said similar thing to me. Please correct me if I am wrong.

Anyway, no excuse.

wow. You surprised me by that! Never expected you to write such things. I was the one who banned you and I would do it again, but you got my respect for that post!
Big words, but I think only Vampire has a right to rate it. I dont have anything against you. Sure youre talking alot (me too sometimes) and it can get on my nerves, but its not a reason not to respect someone. That "joke" was too much though.

Cheers, Freddy

im lazy to read this

god.....man when spam it is too silly when you are serious it is too long
i think reading your posts is impossible task for me...i gave up

{KL}^1 wrote:

wow. You surprised me by that! Never expected you to write such things. I was the one who banned you and I would do it again, but you got my respect for that post!
Big words, but I think only Vampire has a right to rate it. I dont have anything against you. Sure youre talking alot (me too sometimes) and it can get on my nerves, but its not a reason not to respect someone. That "joke" was too much though.

Cheers, Freddy

I believe you that you don't have something against me personally, I understand you when I realized how heavy that was.

I think you brainwashed me and I think I should take other prioritys instead of spamming and talking that much here and get on your nerves. Don't worry. I think it should stop now after that.

{KL}MerT wrote:

im lazy to read this

then dont post, thx! Its a serious topic. Same for TTU. Next stupid posts like that will be deleted!

Kampfhamster wrote:

I saw that I had to change my behaviour, to come out a bit, out of myself, to be extrovert.
So I decided to pretend to be hard, maybe to lock my feelings about it, to make jokes instead of feeling sentimental. And now I have got to know that it is just to much how I behave. I became from a bullied one to a bullying one and that makes me sad.

I am really sorry and you really brainwashed me with this action.

the one thing i like with internet is that you can be your self alot more. if ppl dont like it screw em. maybe its not as easy on a FPS game but more easy on a MMORPG game. but still, here its easyer to just ignore the retards u dont like (unless they are admins on a server u otherwise like to play on lol)

i just wanna say what i think of u

i dont mind u spamming like crazy. its a bit of your charm. what i didnt like was that all the jokes was sex oriented and allmost allways included words like "rape". but i dont mind ppl trying to joke alot or talk alot, cuz i do it my self and my jokes are fucking horrible =/

but as the others have said its up to vampire to judge you. what i do know is that she is a smart person and she understand ppl pretty well i think.

I agree. I don't know why all like that but now I can not change anymore.

The only thing I can do is to apologize and to ask you to forgive me and give me a second chance. I will do it differently in the future, I swear because I see what damage I caused with it. In reality I am crying about that now. The decision about permant ban or temporal ban is now up to you.

Maybe I am just a little boy, I am maybe 20 years old on the paper, but I also notice that I am very immature for my age but I think seeing one's own mistakes and avoiding next time is a good step into the right direction.

having a bad sence of humor is not the same as being immature in my eyes

taking responsibility is a thing that makes u mature. what kind of jokes u like doesnt.

{KL}SiberianHusky wrote:

having a bad sence of humor is not the same as being immature in my eyes

taking responsibility is a thing that makes u mature. what kind of jokes u like doesnt.

I don't say I like anti-women jokes. I think it comes from my immaturity(?) that I have often some sexual thoughts in my mind and I really have to control it.
That is the point. I take the responsibility for what I did, no matter if immaturity or only favourite kind of jokes, although I do not hate anti-women and sexual jokes...


PS: Maybe it would be better to talk in xfire or to delete all messages but only let my 1st post active so that everyone can focus on the 1st one, I think it is the most important one.

I read ur first post, i can honestly say that ur changing period has begun...truely mature words and ofc respectful...

U know, i was furious by the time i saw ur post, but that was only for that specific time, i know sometimes our real life issues effect on our personality as it has happened to me so many times, so i didnt take ur joke serious although it wasnt a "thing" i could laugh at!

Anyway, dont wanna talk about it too much, just want u to know that i believe every1 deserves a second chance, so keep it up.


Im eagerly waiting to see the changes in your behaviour, so wish u luck with this

I don't know what the scenario was as I was not active on the forum in the last couple of days. However, whatever the reason was I believe that KL members acted accordingly.

But from your apology, it seems to me that you did something serious.

It also seems to me that you are genuinely upset by the harm you caused. It's good to see that have realized you have made a mistake & I hope in the future you'll use this scenario as an experience.

James.


P.S. I hope that you carry on being yourself, don't be paranoid visiting our website & posting messages.
Everyone makes mistakes [I do not know what you did & I do not want to know]. But the best thing to do is to move on.